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Rey

Character:  Rey

Series: Star Wars

Worn : Izmircon 2016,
Photoshoot (2016)

 

Juvia Lockser

Character:  Juvia Lockser

Series: Fairy Tail

Worn : Photoshoot (2016)

Max Caulfield

Character:  Max Caulfield

Series: Life is Strange

Worn : Photoshoot (2016)

Eli Ayase

Character: Eli Ayase – Mogyutto “love” de Sekkin Chuu!

Series: Love Live!

Worn :Photoshoot (2016)

Hanji Zoe

Character:  Hanji Zoe

Series: Shingeki no Kyojin

Worn : Izmircon 2016

Leia Organa

Character:  Leia Organa

Series: Star Wars

Worn : New Year’s Party (2015)

Photoshoot (2016)

Chloe Price

Character:  Chloe Price

Series: Life is Strange

Worn : Photoshoot, Belgrade, Serbia (2016)

Jack Frost

Character:  Jack Frost

Series: Rise of the Guardians

Worn : Photoshoot, Oslo (Norway) 2016

Taking a small break.

As you might know, I had one hell of a year in 2015, made so many costumes and kept myself busy, like all the time.

 

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Even after making more than 20 costumes, I was somehow not satisfied. Not single one of them felt like “That’s it, I made it and it looks good”. To be honest I rarely feel like it, but I felt like maybe I was being too perfectionist, maybe I’m doing good, but I’m not realising it.

At the end of 2015 I started making Sona, I try to make one big project each year, and started little bit early.

And It was exhausting. For couple of months I worked on Sona almost every night. I killed my social life, and spend so much money on it.

It was big, way too big for me. There were so many pieces and stuff that I couldn’t make a proper test drive before I wear it. So I didn’t know it was good or bad at all. Spent my nights, going in the dark, without knowing if I was going to the right direction.

In the end I failed HARD. Contest which I couldn’t even pass the pre-eliminaries was just one thing. More importantly, I didn’t feel like I made the right thing. I didn’t make enough planning, I didn’t use right patterns (most of the time I didn’t even use patterns at all) worked so much on lights and didn’t even have chance to  perform. and even if I did it, I wouldn’t be satisfied.

Cosplaying without self-satisfaction is meaningless.

Spending so much time and money (not quite sure about the amount but I’m assuming it’s more than €250 ) obviously made me feel horrible. I could’ve went out with my friends, spend more time with my dog, and I could definitely visit one country or two with that money.

 

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Instead I have this. And I can’t really repair it, or make it better because of  techniques I’ve used.

I’m completely fine with spending time and money on my costumes, as much as it needs. But it’s Equivalent Exchange, It has to be good and I should feel satisfied in return. And Since I go SO big and work messy, I won’t be able to achieve that if I keep working like this and go big every time.

So, I’ve decided to go back to the very beginning.

When I started cosplaying, most of the materials we use these days weren’t around. Other cosplayers had chance to start  with these materials while we were stuck with old techniques. I definitely want to learn new stuff but I can’t do it if I don’t go back.

So, basically, I will try to forget everything I’ve learned and done in past 10 years. Start from baby steps. Learn  how to sew things with pattern, instead of sewing randomly and trying to make it fit for hours. I’ll use patterns and pepakura files for making armor, examine every material and tool, like I’m seeing it for the first time. Learn how to make proper make-up. Learn plastic make-up. Get better at wig styling.

There are couple of things that I think I’m little bit better at. I probably won’t be working on lights, LEDS, etc , or gems. But I’ll learn how to make molds. Vacuum forming.

I’ll sand ,prime, seal, paint, over and over again, until I feel like “That’s” it!

And until I feel  I’m satisfied, I’ll be doing extremely basic and easy costumes. I’m talking about “Life is Strange” level of easiness here!

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(I’m pretty sure that I have all of these clothes in my wardrobe)

But before all that, I’ll be hanging out with my friends,  hug my dog until she hates me, re-organize my workshop so I can use it effectively this time, make the photoshoot area in my workshop ready and wear my old costumes one more time for photoshoots, get better at taking photos and editing.. And of course finish DIY projects in house..

Also, planning to shoot Dj Sona show at home, for the final run this time.

Anyways, I’ll be extremely busy from now on, but first of all, I’ll be visiting Serbia tomorrow..

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..to make my kebab removed!

Thanks for reading and see you soon!

2015

Another year is almost over ! To be honest, it was quite good year. So many things changed in my life, and many things made me happy even tho they stayed just the way they are. These were the major things of 2015 for me.

Coming back to cosplay

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Last year , I’ve only made three costumes and haven’t visited many events. I felt like going back, like thousand times but I couldn’t do it back in 2014. But I was back in the game in 2015, made more than 20 costumes for different reasons/occasions/events etc. I’m trying to make at least one big costume every year, and my big costume was Zelda this year, It was challenging for many reasons, and I’ve already started working on next year’s big one <3

Mid Year Resolutions

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I don’t know why people keep believing  in new year resolutions even though they don’t actually work to make them come true. Well, I wouldn’t do it too, just because the year is changing.. But I do believe in resolutions, at least now.

In mid-summer 2015 I felt like some things had to change in my life.And they did change after all.. I made myself a princess room, changed my hair, rewamped my wardrobe, started wearing make-up daily etc. In the end I felt a lot better <3

New Hair Colours

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I used to dye my hair a lot back in days but I forgot how fun it is. many people ask me why I don’t go to the hair saloons, it’s mainly because hair dying is my zen time. But it’s hard to explain, instead I just say I’m broke.

I believe every woman  should be blonde once in their lifetime.  I was like “why not now??” it was a slow progress since I didn’t want to damage my hair much but in the end I had lovely blonde hair. I also had a chance to try new hair colours like purple, taro purple and pink, which I’ve never tried before.

New countries

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I’ve started visiting places abroad last year with trips to Seoul and London. This year I got into the “what the hell, I’ll visit as a tourist” mood.

Had a chance to visit Italy with Tırrıvırrı in April. It was an amazing trip over all, since I’ve realised that I actually admire art very,very much.

Went to Northern Cyrpus for summer holiday and end up with amazing cosplay photos – Thanks to Emaic- and it was quite relaxing.

In late October, early November we’ve visited Paris and Berlin with Leda, it was a busy trip, we’ve visited so many places in both cities and had chance to see WORLDS 2015 finals.

I’ll be visiting Oslo, Norway in couple of days and greet the new yeart there!  So, as the end of 2015, my country count will be 7!

Got a dog

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This might be the most amazing thing ever happened this year. Not gonna lie, sometimes it’s really really hard. But most of the time, we know that we have the best companion <3 AAARRRGGGHHHH COOKIE!

 

Started streaming

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I had it in my mind for a long time but my internet connection didn’t let me do it :(

 

As the years passed I’ve realised that I’m becoming more and more introvert and shy. When someone says hi at a convention, I’m trying my best to keep up with conversation, but I get anxious and I heard that people think that I’m arrogant because of this. :(  Even tho “what others think doesn’t matter” is a thing, I don’t want people to prejudice and hate me for something this stupid.. So, I’ve decided that I’ll do my best to more social.

I get even more anxious with technology. Writing is totally fine, but even skyping with camera kills me. So, I’ve challenged myself and started streaming. Hope it will help me with these issues in time.

Got a smart phone

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I’ve resisted so long, but it was futile. I had  my very first real smart phone at April and it got stolen in October. Dammit, they don’t last long!

There are many other things happened this year, but these are the ones I could remember. I hope you had an amazing year as well <3